I'm Done

I'm so done today. I'm tired. My back hurts. I just wanna sit down and cry.

That afternoon, I decided to go shopping. Just a bit. So we get ready and drove down in the city. I wanted to buy some little shoe-socks for D, but they didn't have his size. So instead I bought some biscuits and other baby stuff needed. Then I met a friend at Starbucks. D was really nice but after 30 minutes he got bored, even with his favorite book and toy. So we headed back home.
And this was the moment I really just wanted to get to bed, it was 7pm.
I fed D with his semolina pudding he gets every evening as supper. I got him ready for bed, cleaned up his room and put off the lights. Next moment I wanted to go to bed (8:15pm).
Then I wanted to get my button ready to launch and get something to eat so I could be in bed at 9pm. Uhm, yes, that would've been really great. Unfortunately, D couldn't get asleep. He was staying in his little bed and was screaming and crying. I don't know why. Maybe his teeth were hurting. I already gave him some globules but he didn't calm down. It took until about 9:15pm until he was quiet.
I waited some minutes if he's really asleep. Yay, supper time for mommy. I put a pizza in the oven, sat down and watched TV, phoned with my mom backbiting on a wedding invite we received today.
Now, it's 10:30 pm, I'm still awake. I need to get my butt out of my warm bed quite early tomorrow as I need to see my doc for a fasting blood test.
I really go to bed now. I really do. Good Night!

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

Friday night, I was out with one of my best friends. We went to the cinema for seeing "Did you hear about the Morgans?" Really, the movie is great and we enjoyed it quite much.
The reason why we went out was not even that we both wanted to watch that movie. No. The main reason was that my hubby and her boyfriend wanted to do a Wii night. Yes, they wanted to play Wii.
Well, how lame did they get? Some years ago, they would have joined a LAN-party mean packed up their PC and played some shooter games with other guys. Or Playstation. But Wii? Yes, playing Wii is a nice and funny thing when you are playing with some friends and stuff. But men, grown-up, playing archery on the Wii. Really, that made me laugh…
As my friend and me didn't want to join in this thing we decided to go to the cinema. But aren't we lame as well? Some years ago, we would have gone to a disco all night long, dancing until our feet hurt. But no, we just went to the cinema and headed right back home afterwards.
Yes, parenthood makes us lame…. Don't it? But guess what? I really like it this way.

And yesterday evening, I visited a friend who had a jewelry party. So we girls just met to buy some jewelry which you cannot buy elsewhere. It was really fun and the jewelry was fab. I could have bought nearly everything. Hey, I'm female *g* But I just bought a nice ring. In some days time it'll be mine :-)

Yes I enjoy such lame girly stuff. I really do. A very positive attribute of motherhood…
Enjoy your day!

Waterfalls

That morning was really great. I enjoyed it very much and D does as well. He played in his room and I did some household and read my blogs...

Then he decided to help me. This is really nice - unless he wants to help in the bathroom. As I put out the laundry of the washing machine to put the clothes in the tumbler or to hang up the clothes he first put the laundry on the floor. Just pulled them out and put them on the floor. Yes, I know, that's his way to help me. But it isn't right.
I asked him to stop as fresh clothes are never put on the floor. He stopped.

And from one second to the other - the whole bathroom floor was flooded with water. D sat right in the middle of the puddle. He was so shocked that everything was wet and he didn't understand. I screech as I got frightened. Then I took D and sat him on the step to the bathtube, the only dry place in the whole bathroom, and started to mop up the whole thing with some towels. Then D realized that he's wet and did something wrong and started to cry. He sat there on the step with this wet trousers and socks and cried.

God, damn, this was soooo sweet. So I paused mopping up and comforted him. I explained what happened and that I first need to mop up the water and then got him changed. He calmed down, sat good on his step and watched his mommy mopping up the disaster he made up.

But well, I cannot blame him for what he did. He just wanted to play with the bucket half full of water which his mommy didn't put away. Coz she was too lazy to walk with the bucket to the seperate toilet to pour it out. That's the truth. I was too lazy. So this was my punishment.

After mopping everything up I took D to change his clothes. And everything was wet. His socks with the rubber sole, his pants, his tights and his onesie. Yay! So I need to change really the whole boy, except his shirt...

You always get a pay-back for being lazy, don't you? I guess, I learned from this thing... Hopefully!

Have a nice day :-)

Teething

D is teething again. I think his back teeth are going to break through. And yes, they all told me that these teeth are the worst. D already has 8 teeth and we didn't have any problems yet. Of course, he is drooling but that was all. Yes, we were lucky so far.
Not so now. Last night, he started crying. So I headed over to his room and gave him some globules to ease the pain a bit. Then he tried to fall asleep again and I wanted to leave his room. But then he started crying again. So I sat down next to his bed and sat there until we fell asleep again.
Back in my bed I couldn't sleep. An hour later, when I just started to fall asleep, he cried again. This time hubby went over to him. Daddy calmed him and so he fell asleep faster.
I really hope that this will not be like this every night…

And as I sat there by D's bed, in the middle of the night, trying to stay awake and not to collapse I thought about having a baby. I remembered that then I need to stay up every 3 hours approx. every night. So as I won't breastfeed I really need to stay up for a bit. Well, I think I'm not ready for this thing, yet.

Have a nice day :-)

Next

It's Tuesday. I try to enjoy my free afternoon but I can't. Yesterday, I hit my head on D's diaper changing board. I hit it quite hard. It started with headache and I couldn't sleep at night. Now my circulation is quite bad. I should clean our apartment but I don't feel like.
On Thursday, some friends will come over to celebrate the last night of 2009. So our apartment needs to be clean and we will be out of town tomorrow. So I better start this thing...

Sorry, for this short and confused post. That's just how I feel…
I'm wishing you a wonderful last night of 2009 and a great start in a successful and nice New Year!

Thank you for your comments and for letting me join in the www-mama-community! :-)

Tic Tac Tic Tac

Saturday was my birthday party. I invited some friends to celebrate with me. Unfotunately, some of them were ill and couldn't come :-(
When they came over we had Spaghetti Bolognese - easy to prepare for me - and a chocolate Pana Cotta for dessert. It was the first time I did Pana Cotta on my own. I did too much so they will have a nice dessert tonight as well…

My mom picked D up to stay with them so we are able to sleep longer than usual.
Normally, we need to get up at about 8am as D wakes up then.
And as I didn't know how long we'll partying I better organized a babysitter.

We watched boxing (Klitschko vs. Johnson) and did some "Buzz", had some beer and Bailey's and wine and chips - just had a great time! Our guests left around midnight and we enjoyed the silence and watched TV ("Bloody Santa") until I don't know.

The next morning I woke up at *tata* 8am… What the hell??? Why do I wake up at my usual time when I'm able to sleep so much longer? I could have slept until 10 or 11 am but no, I woke up at 8am. As I was still sleepy and I didn't want to get up that early and clean up the kitchen I tried to get asleep again.

No way! I don't get it!
Well, I hate my body clock!

Do you know that? Do you have the same issue? Waking up at your usual getting-up time when you could sleep longer coz you're kids staying elsewhere? Would like to hear/read your experiences...

Can't touch this

Well, I know that kids do have a mind of their own. D has a strong character. If he doesn't get what he wants then he starts screaming and crying trying to impress his parents. But we always stay consequent and he stops screaming quite fast. He knows it's useless.

And of course there are some book-shelfes and cupboards where he's not allowed touch or open. D really likes to put all the books out of the shelf and all my pots, too. I could tell him "no" as often as I want - and I'm sure he understands what "no" means - but he never listens. Or he listens, looking at me, shaking his head as though he understands, smiles at me - and keep on going… It's always the same. Just like he wants to annoy me.

I think that he just wants to know if I stay consequent and tests his limits. But it's quite exhausting to look after him non-stop and try to explain why he's not allowed to do it.
Sometimes I want to record a tape with "no, don't do this" and "no, not this" and play it regularly. Or just play "Can't touch this" by MC Hammer. This would be so much easier, wouldn't it? But it wouldn't help me if he touches the flowers and ruin them. Then I need to put him away.
Two minutes later he's at the flowers again.
Sometimes I am curious what's on his mind. I really am.

How about your kids? The same? Or is it just D?

Dirty...

Well, I never ever wanted to look like a mom. You know: not showered with a hair like a mess, a stressy face, letting everyone know that I'm exhausted.
I always wanted to look like I'm organized. Showered, hair done, nice clothes, whatever. Leaving home like everyone else…

But well, life's not always a bowl of cherries! So now as a mommy I really look like a mommy: hair like a mess, exhausted, stressed.
I always try to be showered when leaving the house and that works quite fine. Also putting on new and clean clothes.

Except yesterday! I was around with my fav grey shirt, cooking and changing diapers and going out to the building center. In the evening, I visited a friend who helped me with some computer issues. Then I went visiting my parents who had guests and talked with them, too. When I came home some hours later and put down my jacket - I saw it: a big stain! *shock*
The whole day I ran around with this stain!
How embarassing!

Maybe most of you think that it's not a big thing b/c it may happen very often. Not to me. Really. It never in this year of being a mommy happened that I wore a dirty shirt. So now I'm checking my clothes twice before leaving the house - even my hair is a mess...

Do those things happen to you, too? How do you handle it?

Well, I'm bored

A bit.
Sometimes I just sit around and don't know what to do with myself or my son.
It's weird. I know.

Sure, there's some household to do, washing, ironing, tidying up, whatever. But yes, some days I don't feel like doing the chores. Of course, I tidy up my kitchen and cook but that's it.
So I just sit around and watch TV shows and yes, I'm bored.

Well, yes, my son (nearly 1 year old) wants to be entertained. He loves to crawl around and play with my Tupperware and his dad's Pepsi bottles. I need to watch him that he doesn't ruin anything or put his fingers in an outlet (even if there a kid's security in it, he shouldn't do it!). You all know that this could be quite stressful to run after the kids. You can do nothing next to it because he's always around and you need to be careful to not hurt the kid while running through your home.

But you cannot do this for about 10 hours. I go out for a walk with him. Play with him. But I do not feel like I'm used to capacity. Yes, I am a stay-at-home mommy (SAHM) and I used to enjoy it quite much but sometimes it's not enough.
As Christmas is coming soon there are some DIY projects to be done but nothing that could be done next to looking after my son.

Any tips? How do you feel as a SAHM? What do you do with your kids this age?

Lost

Remeber Kat's Workshop? I came up to the blog of The (Un)Experienced Mom and her post about how motherhood is changing us.
Her last point was about relationships.

This leads me to this post...

When I met my now husband I finally stopped going out alone. I'm very old-fashioned with this stuff. Sure, I meet some of my girls for a dring or the movies, but that's it.
And, I think you know that as well, when you're having a relationship you have less time to go out. You just enjoy the time together with your new love.
Some people don't understand this. And they even don't accept or respect it. Some of my girls got envy and then, when they knew it was for real, they became bitchy. So I just quit some friendships. Why should I call someone a friend if he/she isn't happy for me?
And then I got pregnant. It was, well, a bit surprisingly but I was happy!
Again, some of the girls got bitchy and envy and whatever. Yes, girls can be funny with that kind of stuff... Now, that I'm a mommy I do not have much time for going out. There are good friends, with no kids but we are still friends and we enjoy the little time together. Seeing each other once in a month is very ok for them. And then there are some no kids friends which cannot understand that there are more important things in my life now.
I think that I will quit the relationship with them because it's not worth any minute.

But you know what? Those people aren't the worst.
The worst are people which got parents some months/years first and so they seem to be better parents and try to change your style of education, telling you you doing wrong or whatever.
Well, I just kicked their sporty butts!

What are your experiences with relation-/friendships while parenthood?

{Sorry that I am not articulate. I need to learn much more about this. For this reason I do write this blog. Of course, it would sound better in German but I need some challenge...
Thanks for your understanding!}